Pain

My Pain Will Go Away Someday

I try to pretend everything is fine

I try to hide my tears inside

I try to hide the pain that I feel
I try to hide the pain all over me

Pain of parents not caring
Pain of a husband uncaring

Pain of children unloving
Pain of friends hostile

I have been born in to pain
I have grown up in pain

I have lived all along in pain
I am now crying in pain

This pain is seperating me from those I love......
For a lifetime I have felt this pain


A pain that will never leave my life!

Rest in Peace Dear Russel, You Will Never Be Forgotten

This is dedicated to my dear Russel, who taught me to love, who taught me to live.....if you cannot come back to me.....come and take me to thee......life without you is not the same anymore.....

Come back dear, come back to me
With you beside me all my troubles will flee
I just cannot take this pain any longer
Come and help me become a little stronger

This world is a very cruel place
Everyone around is with a false face
You cared for me, you loved me so much
During your last moments, my hand you did clutch

You closed your eyes and did not even say good bye
You just let your life slip by
You had always wanted to see a smile on my face
All troubles and worries you would always chase

But my dearest darling Russel
You have left me to face the tussel
I am feeling very lonely and lost
Every trouble seems worse than the last

When it is time for me to leave this place
Wait at heavens door with a warm embrace

REST IN PEACE DEAR RUSSEL
YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

I wish we could start anew

You said you would love me forever Then why are we apart?

I hate the way you read my mind

I hate the way you make me cry
I hate it when you lie to me
I hate it when you avoid me
I hate it when you avoid my calls
I hate it when you are not there to hold me when I fall
I hate it when you show you dont care
I hate it when you are unfair
I hate it when you make me laugh
I hate it most when you make me cry
I hate this pain I feel inside
I hate it coz you are not by my side
I hate the fact that I dont hate you

I hate it coz I wish we could start anew

I am searching for you

I know I am searching

Searching for something undefined
Searching for courage
Searching for happiness
Searching for truth
Searching for joy
Searching for inspiration
Searching for peace
Searching for answers
Searching for security
Searching for someone to be with
Searching for someone to love
Searching for someone to give everything to

Searching for you

Will you be happy or sad when I am finally gone

I now feel that the end of my world has just begun

I look up

And tears roll down my cheeks
As I think of the days
We spent together
I sit here
Calling out to you
Hoping you will answer my call
I lie down
And stretch my hand to reach you
And look at the emptiness beside me
And reluctantly close my eyes
You left without a backward glance
Not giving our love a second chance
No more hopes of warm hands
No more hopes of gentle kisses
The realization of losing you
Is slowly sinking in
I am now alone
With nothing to call my own
I just wish this is all a dream
And when I wake up
You will pull me towards you
And wipe away my tears
I never expected to loose you
Now I dont know what to say
I hope you know that I still love you
And miss you everyday
Just now I sit thinking
I wonder what it will be
Will you be happy or sad

When I am finally gone?

I am waiting for the day

I am waiting for the day
When I will be happy again

No longer alone
No longer afraid
No longer unloved
No longer uncared


I am waiting for the day
When I will be happy again

May all your days begin and end with me

Missing you
Is what I do everyday
When I sit
In my bedroom crying all day
I think of the way
You have changed me so
Life without you
Will not be the same anymore
Please stay with me always
And take my hand
And Ease my aching heart
Help me face all my fears
Wipe away all my tears
For you are the one
Who knows the real me
Even while I am afraid
To show how I can be
You know me better
Than I know myself
And this is how I hope
It will always be
You make every problem
Seem so light
And so I want you
To be with me day and night
I only wish the rest of your life
You spend it with me
And all your days begin
And end with me

Tell me all you want to say

I think God knew

That I was all alone

That I needed someone

To call his own

He saw my heart crying

In silent torment

He understood the pain

That I underwent

He sent you on earth

Especially for me

To share my joys

To wipe my tears

Come hold my hand

Dont make me wait

Come mend my broken heart

Before it is too late

I wait for you in silence

Wait when you will be mine

Release my soul held deep within

I am ready now, let love begin

Take my hand and lead the way

Tell me all you want to say

A rosy dream

I think what keeps me alive is the hope of loving or being loved.

I sit staring
At the computer screen
Looking at the words
He has written
He says he loves me
And wants to be mine
He has shown me dreams
So divine
I wish I could also say
How much I love him
That I would like to be
A part of his dream
But I am no more young
I have to think of my grand children
What will the world say
What should I do?
Should I tell him that I love him
Or should I just let this be a dream?
A rosy dream
With roses so red
And with his hand
On my head
With me in his arms
With him forever by my side
This is after all
Just a dream
A rosy dream
With roses so red
With me in his arms
With him holding me tight
And him telling me
That everything will be alright
This is after all
Just a dream
A rosy dream
With roses so red
With me in his bed
And us making love
And all the angels watching
From heaven above
This is after all
Just a dream
A rosy dream
With roses so red.

I wish I'd dared to really care

There is so much non-violence around us but everyone seems to be forgetting things soon. Nobody seems to be making much of an effort to stop violence around us.

When I was a kid
And my classmate was being bullied
I just sat and watched
I wish I'd dared to really care

When I was in school
And a girl was being molested
I just turned around and looked away
I wish I'd dared to really care

When I was walking down the street
And I saw someone's purse being stolen
I pretended not to see
I wish I'd dared to really care

When somewhere in the night a child cried
A woman wept, someone died
I pretended to sleep
I wish I'd dared to really care

May be if I had dared to care a little
May be if I was not so brittle
On one more face there would be a smile
Some one's life would have been less of a trial


MAY BE WE SHOULD ALL DARE TO CARE

lets all of us take a pledge
To care for every face
To care for every race

My darling, my angel

This was written just before my daughters 18th birthday

God sent me a gift from heaven above
An angel for me to love

To rock and to hold and to kiss Good night 
And to wrap my arms around her real tight

I nurtured her and watched her play
And kissed all her fears away

I was there with a tissue when she blew her nose
Her pranks had always kept me on my toes

I would laugh at her jokes, and clap as she danced
To give me trouble she would not miss a chance

I was with her on her first day of school
And then had to hear complaints as she broke every rule

I cherished every moment as I watched her grow
I tried to teach her everything I know

She has been a help in good times and in bad
And kissed away my tears whenever I was sad

She is no more a baby and is now grown
And is making all her decisions on her own

As I watch her everyday my heart fills with pride
I wish she will always be by my side


I wish her joy, I wish her success
I wish her happiness, in everything she does

The Most Gruesome 59 Hours in Mumbai

What happened here in Mumbai on 26th November was almost like 9/11. This is an incident that we will never be able to forget.

It will be a day for us to remember

Close to the end of November
Almost a day like 11th September
The 59 hours we will all remember

Inside our hearts nervousness grew
It was like a nightmare come true
The place with the most beautiful view
Was now where bullets flew

This was a city where I belonged
This was the place where we sang a romantic song
We were looking at those who tried to obtrude upon
We could not understand what was going on

We are so happy that this has ended
Upon us has peace decended
They had come to disturb our peace

And died at the hands of our military police

My darling daughter

This one is for my daughter who means a lot to me.

It is the little things you do

How much you mean to me you have no clue

You wake up in the morning with a smile
And I just love your style

It is the little things you do
How much you mean to me you have no clue

You wake me up with a cup of hot tea
And we sit together and have it, dont we?

It is the little things you do
Hou much you mean to me you have no clue

You iron my clothes for me
You never ask me for a single rupee

It is the little things you do
How much you mean to me you have no clue

You help me get ready to work
From your duties you never shirk

My dear you have no clue
How much I love the two of you

Inspite of discord and strife
You are always full of life

Bless us all

Bless me God

Bless this day

Bless my friends

Bless my family

Bless my home

Bless my Office

Bless my earnings

Bless my savings

Bless all those who come my way


And Bless all those who read this today

Alone but not lonely

One can be alone but still not feel lonely, if you recognize this, you'll enjoy my poem.

I woke up in the morning

With no one to hug me

But still I say

I am happy today

I prepared my meals

With no one to help me

But still I say

I am happy today

I left for work

With no one to wish me goodbye

But still I say

I am happy today

I went home in the evening

And there was no one to welcome me

But still I say I am happy today

I went to bed

Alone with my dreams

But still I say


I am happy today

Today

Today I look forward to

A hot shower

A great idea

A warm hug

Getting emails

Hugging my kids

Going out to dinner

Hearing my favourite song on the radio

Watching my favourite movie

A chocolate icecream

A relaxed evening

A good conversation

A special smile

Walking barefoot on the sands

Watching a beautiful sunset beautiful sunset

Death came to my house one day

Death came to my house one day

To take me to heaven's door
I asked him to wait
Coz I wanted to live some more

Death came to my house again
And took away my beloved
He did not give us a chance to say good bye
He did not give us a chance to say any more

Now when death comes to me again
What should I say?
Take me to my beloved
Or let me live some more?

I look forward to a night of romance

I look forward to a night of romance

Two lovers holding hands

Walking down the beach
Sitting on the sands


I look forward to a night of romance
Two lovers sitting together
Candle night dinner
An evening so divine


I look forward to a night of romance
Two lovers together
As music plays in the background

And the two become one

I will buy you a dozen roses

Deep within my heart

Is embedded your name

Life changed from the day

You called out my name

Unconditional love

Is what you gave me

You showed me you cared

You promised me you would always be there

A smile on my face

Is what you liked to see

But the smile had disappeared

Without a trace

I'll buy you a dozen roses

And put on your grave

And sit there wishing for the day


The day that I will die

A true friend

Wish everyone had a friend like you

You are such a great person
You touch my heart with kindness
You know when to offer advice
And when to sit quiet
We are miles apart
But the miles will never come between us
You will always be in my heart
You have been an incredible friend
And true inspiration to me
Encouragement is what you have given me
When I was in need
You came to my rescue
You brightened up some of my routine days
I am fortunate that my life includes you
You are one of a kind
There are many good friends around
But true friends are hard to come by

Wish everyone had a friend like you

I miss my beloved

Father you have taken away my beloved

With tears in my eyes I bid him farewell

Because I knew you needed him there in your heavenly home

But now Father send him back to me

Because I now need him to console me

Send him back where he belongs


HE BELONGS TO ME

My favourite bench

• We make our own plans in life. But the one above has something very different planned for us. We have to understand his words and actions.

I was standing at the station with my family next to me. They were telling me something that I could not understand. Or is it that I just did not want to understand? I think there was something wrong. They had got some wrong information. I was just standing there. Then they made me sit on the bench. My favourite bench. I would come here and sit everyday for the past thirteen years. But wait - I liked this bench because I got a lot of privacy here. Even though the station was crowded everyone would be busy trying to catch the train and nobody would have the time to look at me. But why is it now that when I looked up there were about a hundred odd faces looking at me. All around me I could see people just staring at me. Why did they not go away and leave me alone there on my favourite bench.

First I think I should tell you the story of this bench.

It was on this bench thirteen years earlier that I was waiting to meet my brothers best friend. Now he was my best friend too. He came and sat next to me and we spoke to each other for over an hour. After that we would daily meet on this bench. It was here that we first expressed our love for each other. It was here on this very bench that we planned our marriage. And it was here that we decided on how many kids we would have after marriage. Two kids - yes that is all we wanted. Irrespective of whether they were boys or girls. We were okay with both. Then one day we realized we would not be able to get the permission from our families to get married. So we decided to elope.

One day in the year 1987 we were to get married in the court. He waited for me on this bench for over an hour because I was delayed at home. He was worried that I had changed my mind but refused to move away from the bench because he thought that if I came and did not see him I would go away. So he waited and waited. And then I came and sat with him there for some time and from there we went to the court and got married. After that we would come everyday and sit on the bench together for some time before I took the train to work. This had become our favourite bench. We did not have to tell each other where to meet. We both knew the other would be there waiting on the bench.
And now today in 2000 I am again sitting on the same bench. On the bench where we had planned what we would be doing for the next 50 years of our life. Yes he had already planned our lives for the next 50 years.

But now my family was trying to tell me something. And the public around were all feeling sorry for me. I could not understand what was going on. I was trying to understand what they were all saying.
Then my co-sister held my hand and tried to very slowly tell me again. My husband had got into an accident a few metres away from my favourite bench. I had to sign some papers. I had to claim his body. Yes I was now sitting on my favourite bench waiting to claim his body. On the very bench that I saw my life start I could see the end also.

You are my hope

When there was just no one around,

And in my sorrow I had drowned,

God looked at me from above,

And sent me someone to love.

Loving you I know is crazy,

I hear your voice and just go dizzy.

Am waiting to feel your arms around me,

I just don’t know when it is going to be.

Hope you will be mine till the very end,

And always be my lover and my friend.

I hope this is a good start,

And I can trust you with my heart.

Friends forever

In this age of computers and social networking we meet many people online and for us they remain just names because we do not ever meet them. I have made quite a few online friends over the years and have not met most of them. But through constant communication, sharing pictures, sharing our day to day experiences I have come quite close to some of them and in fact look forward to meeting them one day. This is for the ones who really care for me and whom I hope to meet soon.

The names for me were just names

They meant nothing else to me I did not care what their faces were like They were just online friends to me

I saw you and things just changed
I now care very much what faces are like
Now friends are not just online friends
Be my rock and be my strength

And through the years stay beside me
So in this age of mobiles and computers
Sent you to me online
I have so much to say

I hope this friendship will last
Forever till the very end

Till I saw you and we became friends

One day we will meet this I promise

In you a good friend I do see

Someone up there knew I was lonely

Needed a friend and needed a guide

Words are very hard to come

Life without you is not the same anymore

It is so hard to sleep

Without you by my side

The tears that flow from my eyes

In my pillow I try to hide

I miss you so

Why did you leave me and go

I loved you as a friend

I thought you would be with me

Till the very end

I want you back

Why did you go

Life without you

Is not the same any more

Just be always there for Me

Whenever I need someone to talk to

Just be there for me.

Whenever my heart is filled with pain

Just be there for me.

Whenever my eyes are filled with tears

Just be there for me.

No matter what my problems

No matter what goes wrong

Just be there for me.

When darkness falls around me

And I can’t find my way

Just be there for me.

Be with me when I need you most

Be with me constantly

JUST BE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME